Waving Through a Window · Dear Evan Hansen

Evan Hansen

Dear Evan Hansen...

...today is going to be an amazing day,

and here's why.

Because today, all you have to do is just be yourself.

But also confident. That's-that's important.

And interesting. Easy to talk to.

Approachable. But mostly just be yourself.

You know, that's number one, obviously. Be yourself.

But, like, a confident version of yourself,

like, approachable and interesting

and not weird or anxious or depressed.

But you're not weird or anxious or depressed.

I don't even know why you're bringing it up.

You can't be scared to talk to other people.

You said that you'd be better.

You said this year would be different.

You're overthinking it.

Do you like having no friends?

All you have to do is just be yourself.

Film cast

I've learned to slam on the brake

Before I even turn the key

Before I make the mistake

Before I lead with the worst of me

Give them no reason to stare

No slipping up if you slip away

So I got nothing to share

No, I got nothing to say

Step out, step out of the sun

If you keep getting burned

Step out, step out of the sun because you've learned

Because you've learned

On the outside always looking in

Will I ever be more than I've always been?

'Cause I'm tap, tap, tapping on the glass

I'm waving through a window

Oh, I try to speak, but nobody can hear

So I wait around for an answer to appear

While I'm watch, watch, watching people pass

I'm waving through a window

Oh

Can anybody see?

Is anybody waving back at me?

Heidi Hansen

So you just didn't eat last night?

Evan Hansen

I wasn't hungry.

Heidi Hansen

You're a senior in high school.

You need to be able to order dinner for yourself.

You can do it all online.

You don't have to talk to anybody.

Evan Hansen

Okay, well, that's not, that's not true, actually, though,

because, um, the credit card's expired, so you have to meet

the delivery person at the door, you know?

You have to pay them with cash at the door.

You have to greet them.

You know, you have to figure out the right,

the right, um-- the-the proper greeting.

Heidi Hansen

Okay.

This is what you're supposed to be working on, sweetheart,

with Dr. Sherman.

Have you been doing those letters he wants you to do?

"Dear Evan Hansen."

Evan Hansen

I mean, I've definitely-- I-I've been trying to.

Heidi Hansen

Those letters are important, honey.

You have to keep working.

We can't go back to where you were last year, right?

Um, you have an appointment this afternoon.

I'm working till 6:00,

so you're gonna have to take the bus.

Hey.

I thought you could go around

and ask all the other kids to sign your cast.

Perfect icebreaker, right?

Evan Hansen & Heidi Hansen

What happened to your shirt? -There was a stain on it.

Wha-- But it's brand-new. -Yes, I know.

Heidi Hansen

I was-- I'm so mad.

Film cast

We start with stars in our eyes

We start believing that we belong

But every sun doesn't rise

And no one tells you where you went wrong

Step out, step out of the sun

If you keep getting burned

Step out, step out of the sun because you've learned

Because you've learned

On the outside always looking in

Will I ever be more than I've always been?

'Cause I'm tap, tap, tapping on the glass

Waving through a window

Oh, I try to speak, but nobody can hear

So I wait around for an answer to appear

While I'm watch, watch, watching people pass

Waving through a window

Oh

Can anybody see?

Is anybody waving?

When you're falling in a forest

And there's nobody around

Do you ever really crash or even make a sound?

When you're falling in a forest

And there's nobody around

Do you ever really crash or even make a sound?

When you're falling in a forest

And there's nobody around

Do you ever really crash or even make a sound?

When you're falling in a forest

And there's nobody around

Do you ever really crash or even make a sound?

Did I even make a sound? Did I even make a sound?

It's like I never made a sound

Will I ever make a sound?

On the outside always looking in

Will I ever be more than I've always been?

'Cause I'm tap, tap, tapping on the glass

Waving through a window

Oh, I try to speak, but nobody can hear

So I wait around for an answer to appear

While I'm watch, watch, watching people pass

Waving through a window

Oh

Can anybody see?

Is anybody waving back at me?

Is anybody waving?

Waving, waving

Whoa...

Whoa.

Let's go, Bobcats, let's go...

Jared Kalwani

Evan.

Evan Hansen

What?

Jared Kalwani

It's Zoe Murphy

in that hot band shirt you love so much.

Evan Hansen

Can you just-- Can you please stop?

Jared Kalwani

Well, hey, maybe she's into you, too.

Maybe you should talk to her, tell her how you feel.

Evan Hansen

I've tried talking to her.

Jared Kalwani

Really?

Evan Hansen

Yes. Yeah, I...

I stayed afterwards, um, last year

after the spring jazz band concert,

but, um, I didn't go up to her

because I was worried that my hands were sweaty.

Which they weren't even, they weren't even that sweaty.

I just... I was worried that they were sweaty,

and sometimes worrying that they're sweaty

makes them sweaty, so I just went to the bathroom

and I put 'em under, like, the hand dryer thing,

but then they were still sweaty.

They were just, um-- They were just also warm.

Jared Kalwani

I was kidding.

You obviously should not talk to her.

You are a literal disaster.

Film cast

Go, Bobcats!

Alana Beck

Go, Bobcats.

So awesome.

So awesome, everyone.

Phenomenal, really.

You know what's not phenomenal?

Deforestation.

So, what happened to your arm exactly?

Evan Hansen

Um, I was climbing a tree, and I fell.

It was stupid.

Alana Beck

You fell out of a tree? What are you, five?

Evan Hansen

Well, um...

So, actually, I-I worked this summer

as an apprentice park ranger at Ellison State Park.

It's a funny story, though, because...

there was, like, this solid ten minutes after I fell

where I just lay there on the ground,

um, waiting for someone to come get me, you know?

I was like, "Any second now." You know?

I just kept-- I, like-- I was saying to myself,

"Any second now. Here they come." So...

Alana Beck

Did they?

Evan Hansen

No, nobody came.

That's the, um-- That's what's funny.

Alana Beck

That's not funny.

Model U.N....

Evan Hansen

Well, anyways, um, how was-- Did you, um--

How was camp?

Jared Kalwani

Well, I put on 13 pounds of pure muscle.

Also, I hooked up with this Brazilian dude

who is literally a supermodel.

So, yeah, hope that answers your question.

Alana Beck

So let's have Mother Nature's back so that she'll have ours.

Film cast

Yeah! Yeah!

All right, thank you, Alana. Very inspirational.

All right, so let's have a great year,

and, uh, go, Bobcats!

Evan Hansen

Hey, um...

would you want to sign my cast?

Uh, you could, you could be the first.

Jared Kalwani

Why would I do that?

Evan Hansen

Well, I just-- I thought, um, because we're friends and...

Jared Kalwani

We're family friends, Evan.

That's an entirely different thing.

Please respect that.

Film cast

Connor, I'm loving this manicure.

Connor Murphy & Film cast

Very school shooter chic. -You're such an idiot.

Film cast

That is so not...

Here we go, Bobcats, here we go.

Connor Murphy

You think that's funny?

Evan Hansen

What? No. Not-not at all.

Connor Murphy

Then stop laughing!

Zoe Murphy

Hey.

I'm sorry about my brother.

He's a psycho.

Evan, right?

Evan?

That-That's your, that's your name?

Evan Hansen

Y-Yeah, it is. It is. Sorry.

It's Evan. It's Evan. I'm sorry.

Zoe Murphy

Why are you sorry?

Evan Hansen

'Cause you s-s-- you said Evan, and then I said it, you know?

I just repeated it, which is, um--

That's just really annoying when people do that, so...

Zoe Murphy

I'm Zoe.

Evan Hansen

Sorry. I should-- I think-- Sorry.

Dear Evan Hansen,

turns out this wasn't an amazing day after all.

This isn't gonna be an amazing week or an amazing year

because why would it be?

Oh, I know. Because there's Zoe.

Who I don't even know and who doesn't know me, but...

Maybe if I did, maybe if I could just talk to her,

maybe things would be better.

Or...

...maybe nothing would be different at all.

I wish everything was different.

I wish I was different.

I wish I was part of something.

I wish that anything I said mattered to anyone.

But it doesn't, and it never did.

And it never will.

I mean, face it, would anyone even notice if I just...

disappeared tomorrow?

Sincerely, your best and most dearest friend,

Me.

Connor Murphy

Hey.

What happened to your arm?

Evan Hansen

Um...

I was climbing a tree, and I fell.

Connor Murphy

You fell out of a tree?

That's the saddest thing I've ever heard.

Evan Hansen

I know.

S-Sorry, um, I think I accidentally printed something.

Film cast

Yeah, we're all waiting.

Connor Murphy

Um, no one signed your cast.

Evan Hansen

No, I-I know.

Connor Murphy

I'll sign it.

Evan Hansen

Oh, you don't-- you really don't have to...

Connor Murphy

Do you have a Sharpie?

Evan Hansen

Oh, um, I don't. Shoot.

Connor Murphy

Oh, here's one.

Evan Hansen

Nice.

Connor Murphy

Wow, that's great.

Now we can both pretend we have friends.

Uh, "Dear Evan Hansen." Here you go.

Evan Hansen

Y-Yeah, that's mine. That's mine.

Connor Murphy & Evan Hansen

I'll-- I can take it, sorry. -"Because there's Zoe..."

Connor Murphy

Is this about my sister?

Evan Hansen

What? No, no. Who's-who's your sister?

Connor Murphy & Evan Hansen

You wanted me to find this? -What?

Connor Murphy

You saw I was here, so you started writing this

Connor Murphy & Evan Hansen

and you started talking to me. -No.

Evan Hansen

No, you started talking to me.

Connor Murphy

So that I would read some creepy shit

about my sister and freak out, right?

Connor Murphy & Evan Hansen

Why would I do that? -So then you can tell everyone

Connor Murphy

that I'm crazy. Right?

Connor Murphy & Film cast

Right?! -Gentlemen!

Evan Hansen

No, I really--

Look, I really need that back, so can--

Look, can you please just give it back?

Just-just please don't show it to anyone.

Film cast

Connor!

Evan Hansen

Come on.

Shit, shit.

Hi.

Heidi Hansen

Hi, honey. I'm so sorry.

Erica called in at the last minute with a stomach bug,

and there's only one other nurse on tonight,

so I-I volunteered to take her shift.

I hope you weren't waiting for me to eat.

Evan Hansen & Heidi Hansen

No, I already ate. -Um, it's just they, uh,

Heidi Hansen

they announced more budget cuts this morning,

so anything I can do to show

that I'm a team player, you know?

Evan Hansen & Heidi Hansen

How was your day? -Fine.

Evan Hansen

It was, it was pretty good.

Heidi Hansen

Yeah? You know, I-I texted with Meera this morning,

and she said that Jared was

really looking forward to seeing you and reconnecting.

I thought that was nice.

Evan Hansen

Yeah, he's so nice.

Evan Hansen & Heidi Hansen

How was Dr. Sherman? -Pretty good.

Heidi Hansen

Any change to your meds?

Evan Hansen

Um, no.

Heidi Hansen

Oh, God, here he comes. Um, all right, I-I-I--

All right, love you. Bye.

Evan Hansen

Okay, I love you...

too.

Jared Kalwani

A letter to yourself. I mean, what is that,

like some kind of sex thing?

Evan Hansen

No. No, it's not a sex thing.

It's-- It was an assignment from my therapist.

Jared Kalwani

Ew. Why-why are you telling me this?

Evan Hansen

Well, I didn't know who else to tell.

You're my only f-- family friend.

Jared Kalwani

Oh, that's sad.

Evan Hansen

Look, Connor isn't here again today.

That's-that's three days in a row.

And h-he hasn't done anything with it yet, you know,

like put it online or whatever,

because I've-I've been checking.

So, you know, maybe he just-- maybe he forgot, right?

Jared Kalwani

Right. Right.

Evan Hansen

Or maybe he didn't,

because he's definitely gonna put it online.

Jared Kalwani

Dude, Connor Murphy is batshit.

Don't you remember when he threw a printer at Mrs. G

in the second grade because he couldn't be line leader?

Like, he was seven.

Just imagine what he's capable of now.

Film cast

Evan Hansen, please report

to Mr. Howard's office.

Jared Kalwani

Oh, damn.

Film cast

Evan.

Connor Murphy's mother and stepfather are here to see you.

They want to speak in private.

Evan Hansen

Hi.

Cynthia Murphy

Hello.

Larry Murphy

Why don't you go ahead, honey.

Cynthia Murphy

I'm going as fast as I can.

Larry Murphy

Well, that's not what I said, is it?

Cynthia Murphy

This is...

Connor wanted you to have this.

Larry Murphy

Yeah, we didn't know you were friends.

Oh, well, we didn't think

Connor had any friends, frankly, and...

Cynthia Murphy

and then we see this note, and it seems to suggest

pretty clearly that you and Connor were, uh--

Larry Murphy

Or at least for Connor...

Cynthia Murphy

"Dear Evan Hansen." He addressed it to you.

He wrote it to you.

These are the words that he wanted to share with you.

His last words.

Connor took his own life.

Evan Hansen

He what?

Larry Murphy

This is all we found with him.

He had it folded up in his pocket.

Cynthia Murphy

But this is--

Evan Hansen

I'm sorry, Connor didn't-- He--

He didn't write this.

Connor didn't, Connor didn't write this.

Cynthia Murphy

What-what does that mean?

Larry Murphy

Well, he's obviously in shock.

Evan Hansen & Larry Murphy

I mean, if Connor didn't write this... -I'm so sorry.

Evan Hansen

Can I just-- I should probably go, please.

Cynthia Murphy

No, you don't understand. This is all that we have.

This is the only thing that we have left.

Cynthia Murphy & Larry Murphy

Cynthia, listen to me. -No. No. Don't-don't go.

Evan Hansen

Okay, then you take it. Please take it, okay?

Cynthia Murphy

No. No, don't go.

Don't. Please stay. Please.

His best and most dearest friend.

Evan Hansen

That's-that's Connor.

Jared Kalwani

Connor Murphy.

Holy shit.

Evan Hansen

They invited me for dinner.

They want to know more stuff about Connor and me,

about our... friendship.

Evan Hansen & Jared Kalwani

A-And you said yes? -I froze.

Jared Kalwani

Well... what are you gonna tell them?

Evan Hansen

I mean, the truth.

Jared Kalwani

I-I don't know, man.

I mean, are you really gonna tell these people

that the only thing they have left of their son

is a sex letter that you wrote to yourself?

Film cast

Hey.

I'm so sorry.

Jared Kalwani

What the hell was that?

Evan Hansen

I don't know.

Oh, my God, they were so sad, his parents.

I mean, his-his mom was just...

I've never seen anyone so sad before.

I have to tell them.

Zoe Murphy

You're early.

Evan Hansen

Oh. S-Sorry.

Zoe Murphy

Sit.

Cynthia Murphy

I hope you're hungry.

So...

...you and Connor.

You probably spent a lot of time together, I bet.

Evan Hansen

So, um, not...

not really, actually.

Evan Hansen & Larry Murphy

Uh, the thing is that I... -We looked through his phone.

Larry Murphy

His texts, emails.

We didn't find anything from you.

Evan Hansen

Yeah, no, I know.

Cynthia Murphy & Evan Hansen

I know. -He set up different accounts,

Cynthia Murphy

ones we couldn't find.

He knew you read his emails.

Larry Murphy

Well, somebody had to be the bad guy.

Cynthia Murphy

Well, if you did have any

emails or conversations between the two of you,

we'd love to see anything.

Evan Hansen & Zoe Murphy

Well... -Yeah, it's-it's weird.

Zoe Murphy

Th-The only time I saw you two together was

when he was screaming in your face at school last week.

Cynthia Murphy

He was screaming at you?

Evan Hansen

Yeah, yeah, um...

Cynthia Murphy

Well, that wasn't very nice.

Zoe Murphy

Well, Connor wasn't very nice, so that actually makes sense.

Larry Murphy

I think that everybody at this table can agree

that Connor was, um...

...a complicated person.

Zoe Murphy

No, he was a bad person.

Cynthia Murphy & Zoe Murphy

Zoe, please. -Don't pretend like you don't agree with me.

Cynthia Murphy

You refuse to remember any of the good things.

Zoe Murphy

Because there were no good things.

What-what were the good things?

Cynthia Murphy

I'm not having this conversation

Cynthia Murphy & Zoe Murphy

in front of our guest. -No, tell us the good things.

Zoe Murphy

What were the good things?

Cynthia Murphy & Zoe Murphy

Family day at Sunny Glen? Zoe!

Larry Murphy

This is not the time.

Zoe Murphy

Who knew rehab could be so much fun?

Cynthia Murphy

There were good things.

I'm not the only one.

You remember, right?

Evan Hansen

Right.

Of course.

Yes, of course there were good things.

Larry Murphy

Tell us something.

Cynthia Murphy

Please, Evan.

Evan Hansen

Right, um...

S-- Uh, Connor and I...

Uh, I d-- I don't know, um...

We had a really great...

we had a really great time together, um...

this one day recently.

That's something good, um, that I remember.

That day.

Um...

Yeah, that awesome day at the...

...um, trees.

Trees? -Never mind, never mind.

I'm sorry, I don't, I don't-- I shouldn't have said anything,

and I-I knew it was stupid, so I'm sorry...

Cynthia Murphy

You don't mean the orchard, do you?

He took you to the apple orchard?

Cynthia Murphy & Evan Hansen

When? -Uh, once.

Evan Hansen

Just-just once. That once.

Larry Murphy

I thought that place closed years ago.

Cynthia Murphy

Well, the hiking trails are still open though, aren't they?

We used to go to the orchard all of the time.

We'd do picnics there.

Do you remember that, Zoe?

Zoe Murphy

Yeah, I do.

Cynthia Murphy

And you and Connor would fly that little toy plane

until you crashed it into the creek.

Larry Murphy

That was an emergency landing.

Cynthia Murphy

I can't believe that he took you there.

I bet you had fun.

I bet the two of you-- I...

I bet that was fun.

Evan Hansen

Yeah.

We did. We did.

The whole day.

Uh, it-it was just...