Dear Evan Hansen (2021 Film Subtitle Song Sequence) · 10
Words Fail
Evan Hansen埃文·汉森
I never meant to make it such a mess
我从没想把事情弄得这么糟
I never thought that it would go this far
也从没想过会闹到这一步
Cynthia Murphy辛西娅·墨菲
There were emails. You showed us emails.
可那些邮件呢？你给我们看过邮件。
Evan Hansen埃文·汉森
So I just stand here sorry
所以我只能站在这里道歉
Searching for something to say
搜寻着该说些什么
Cynthia Murphy辛西娅·墨菲
Mm.
嗯。
Evan Hansen埃文·汉森
Something to say
想说点什么
Larry Murphy拉里·墨菲
Y-Y-You knew about the orchard.
你知道果园的事。
He-he took you to the orchard.
康纳带你去过果园。
That's where you broke your arm.
你就是在那里摔断手的。
Evan Hansen埃文·汉森
I broke my arm in Ellison Park, um, by myself.
我的胳膊是在埃利森公园摔断的，呃，就我一个人。
Cynthia Murphy辛西娅·墨菲
But that day at the orchard...
可果园那一天呢……
Larry Murphy拉里·墨菲
You and Connor at the orchard.
你和康纳一起在果园。
Evan Hansen埃文·汉森
Words fail
言语失效
Words fail
言语失效
There's nothing I can say
我什么也说不出来
Cynthia Murphy辛西娅·墨菲
Oh, God.
天哪
Zoe Murphy佐伊·墨菲
But you said that you guys would talk about me.
可你说过，你们会聊起我。
He would...
他会……
How could you do this?
你怎么能这么做？
Evan Hansen埃文·汉森
I guess I thought I could be part of this
我想，我以为自己也能成为其中一员
I never had this kind of thing before
因为我从来没拥有过这样的东西
I never had that perfect girl
从来没有过完美的女孩
Who somehow could see the good part of me
能看到我好的一面
I never had the dad who stuck it out
我从来没有过一个始终留下来的爸爸
No corny jokes or baseball gloves
没有老掉牙的笑话，也没有棒球手套
No mom who just was there
没有一个只要陪在身边的妈妈
'Cause mom was all that she had to be
因为妈妈必须独自扛起一切
That's not a worthy explanation
这算不上一个说得通的解释
I know there is none
我知道根本没有解释
Nothing can make sense of all these things I've done
我做的一切都没有正当理由
Words fail, words fail
言语失效，言语失效
There's nothing I can say
我什么也说不出来
Except sometimes you see everything you wanted
只是，有时你会看见自己想要的一切
And sometimes
有时候
You see everything you wish you had
你会看见自己渴望拥有的一切
And it's right there, right there, right there
而它就在那里，就在那里，就在那里
In front of you
就在你面前
And you want to believe it's true
你想相信一切是真的
So you make it true
于是你让它成真
And you think maybe
于是你会以为，也许
Everybody wants it
每个人都想要它
And needs it
也需要它
A little bit, too.
哪怕只是一点点。
Zoe.
佐伊。
Larry Murphy拉里·墨菲
I think it's time for you to go.
我觉得你该走了
Zoe Murphy佐伊·墨菲
Go away, Evan.
走开，埃文。
Evan Hansen埃文·汉森
It isn't fair, okay?
这不公平，好吗？
You can't, you can't let people
你不能让人们
just blame you and your parents.
就这么责怪你和你父母。
They need to know it was me, okay?
他们得知道是我干的，好吗？
I'm the one people should hate.
人们该恨的是我。
Zoe Murphy佐伊·墨菲
Yeah, well, we're not telling anyone.
是啊，可我们不会告诉任何人。
Evan Hansen埃文·汉森
Well, that's-- I--
可那——我——
You can't-- You have to.
你不能——你必须说。
Zoe Murphy佐伊·墨菲
It's not my decision.
这不是我能决定的。
It's my mom's.
是我妈决定的。
She doesn't want to ruin your life.
她不想毁了你的人生。
She's afraid you'll do something stupid.
她怕你会做傻事。
Like hurt yourself.
比如伤害自己。
She said they already lost one son.
她说，他们已经失去了一个儿子。
Can you just...
你能不能……
leave my family alone, okay?
别再打扰我的家人了，好吗？
Evan Hansen埃文·汉森
This was just a sad invention
这一切不过是一个悲伤的编造
It wasn't real, I know
都不是真的，我知道
But we were happy
但我们曾那么快乐
I guess I couldn't let that go
我想是我舍不得
I guess I couldn't give that up
我想是我放不下
I guess I wanted to believe
我想，我只是想要相信
'Cause if I just believe
因为只要我相信
Then I don't have to see
我就不必看见
What's really there
真正摆在那里的东西
No, I'd rather pretend
不，我宁愿假装
I'm something better than these broken parts
自己比这些破碎的部分更好
Pretend I'm something other than
假装我是别的什么人
This mess that I am
而不是这样一团糟的我
'Cause then I don't have to look at it
因为那样，我就不必看见它
And no one gets to look at it
别人也无从看见它
No, no one can really see
不，没人能真正看见
'Cause I've learned to slam on the brake
因为我学会了猛踩刹车
Before I even turn the key
甚至在转动钥匙之前
Before I make the mistake
在我犯错之前
Before I lead with the worst of me
在最糟的我出现之前
I never let them see
我从不让他们看见
The worst of me
我最糟糕的一面
'Cause what if everyone saw?
因为，如果每个人都看见了呢？
What if everyone knew?
如果每个人都知道了呢？
Would they like what they saw?
他们会喜欢自己看到的吗？
Or would they hate it, too?
还是他们也会讨厌它？
Will I just keep on running away
我是不是要继续逃跑？
From what's true?
逃离真实？
All I ever do is run
我所做的从来都只是逃跑
So how do I step in
我该怎么走进去
Step into the sun?
踏进阳光下？
Step into the sun.
踏进阳光下。
Heidi Hansen海蒂·汉森
Evan?
埃文？
Evan?
埃文？
Evan?
埃文？
Oh, honey.
哦，亲爱的。
"Dear Evan Hansen..."
“亲爱的埃文·汉森……”
You wrote this? Connor's note?
这是你写的？康纳的遗书？
I didn't know.
我不知道。
Evan Hansen埃文·汉森
No one did.
谁也不知道。
Heidi Hansen海蒂·汉森
No, honey, that's...
不，亲爱的，那不是……
...that's not what I meant.
我不是这个意思。
I didn't know that you were...
我不知道你一直……
...that you were hurting like that.
一直那样痛苦。
That you felt...
你一直觉得……
I didn't know.
我不知道。
Evan Hansen埃文·汉森
I lied.
我说谎了
I lied about so many things.
我在太多事情上撒了谎。
Not just Connor. Um...
不只是康纳的事。嗯……
So, last summer, um...
所以，去年夏天，嗯……
...I just...
我…
...I just felt so alone. Um...
我觉得很孤单
Heidi Hansen海蒂·汉森
You can tell me.
你可以告诉我
Evan Hansen埃文·汉森
The tree.
那棵树的事。
I didn't fall.
我没有摔下来
I let go.
是我自己放手的
Evan Hansen & Heidi Hansen埃文·汉森 & 海蒂·汉森
Oh, Evan. -Do you hate me now?
哦，埃文。——你现在讨厌我了吗？
Evan Hansen埃文·汉森
You should. You should.
你应该讨厌我。应该的。
If you knew who I am, just how just broken I am.
如果你知道我是什么人，知道我有多破碎。
Heidi Hansen海蒂·汉森
I already know you.
我早就知道你是什么人。
And I love you.
而且我爱你
I can promise you that...
我向你保证
...someday...
总有一天……
...all of this is gonna feel like a very long time ago.
这一切都会像很久以前的事。
Evan Hansen埃文·汉森
Ah.
啊。
Heidi Hansen海蒂·汉森
Your dad, um...
你爸爸，嗯……
Do you remember when he drove by to get his things?
还记得他开车回来取东西那次吗？
It was a few weeks after he moved out.
那是他搬出去几个星期后。
Temporarily, we said.
我们当时说，只是暂时的。